as-salam alaykum,
We live in a polluted world where it is extremely hard to stay pure.
We live in perhaps the most sexually stimulated society in the history of this world. Our food is advertised with sex, our clothing is advertised with sex, our sports activities are advertised with sex, our music is polluted with sex, our movies and television programs are full of sexual stimulation. America’s favorite past time is having sex, and having perverted types of sex. Our children have complete and easy access to the most filthy types of pornography on the internet. It’s almost impossible to escape it – it’s like trying to stay clean while swimming through mud. To stay clean, we must aggressively work to strengthen ourselves, and to strengthen our hearts to not be polluted by vain desires.
I am Fallen Seeker, and I am a Muslim college student who has been addicted to both masturbation and pornography for 7 years. It is a dark and filthy world, and taints the purity of every aspect of life. It is a life of slavery. It is a life of shame. It is a life of filth – and I am committed to change this life of mine.
This blog is a personal journal of my intention to purify myself from the addictions of pornography and masturbation.
I will post how many days it’s been since I have masturbated or have watched pornography. This is an extremely hard thing to do but I think having a personal journal will allow me to analyze myself and my addiction and help me overcome it.
I will write posts maybe 2-3 times a week, maybe less. But I will always be honest about how many days I have gone porn-free, and masturbation free, and will always give updates. It’s extremely hard for me to expose myself in such a way, but I think it’s necessary.
May Allah help us stay clean from vain desires, and help us lower our gaze.
Ameen.
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