I haven’t written anything for a long time, for a few months actually, and haven’t updated Fallen Seeker’s Record.
I lost my commitment to post things on the blog, and that is a real loss in my fight to be filth free.
I’ve realized that the thing I really need to focus on is salah. I’ve never really been consistent in my prayer, and have always felt guilty but lazy towards it. There was a time fr about a month when I lived in Saudi Arabia, that I prayed very slowly and had memorized the meanings of the words for salah, and really prayed – to the best of my ability - remembering that Allah Subhanata’ala was before me, thereafter I went for Umrah, and I have even gone for Hajj, staying filth free for my lifetime record of 18days.
Since then I have not established the prayer – and that is the most fundamental deed of any Muslim. I realize now that I need focus in my life and I need to concentrate all of my powers on one goal at a time. And for me, right now, the most important goal is to ESTABLISH prayer 5 times a day, and nothing else really matters.
And there is a difference between just praying five times a day and establishing prayer – it means praying with sincerity, as if you are praying with Allah in front of you, knowing that it could be your last prayer.
That’s the difference, and inshallah I will focus on this goal of prayer first, and staying filth free comes later.
My mantra is : “Not a single lost prayer”
I’ll post some strategies I use to get me through it, but basically i don’t want to focus on any habit as a goal for the next month, not even my studies except for salah.
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